July 19, 2010
July 14, 2010
Scared as Heck but I can not look back Now
237.4 lbs
AND losing my weigh in days are Monday and Thursday the good /bad and the ugly will be posted.
AND losing my weigh in days are Monday and Thursday the good /bad and the ugly will be posted.
July 05, 2010
Question Is
That could be me all green and holding a question mark in my hand. But not anymore I finally think this is it. For all of you who may have doubted me, I am just checking in; even though at times I doubted myself . I found out food was/is not the problem, it was me, I did not eat in moderation.Duh! Now I am having 7 to 10 small meals a day, a hell of a difference compared to the 10 to12 large meals I use to have a day. So the question is, will I stick with it. I'm goin have to say yes, there is no doubt in my mind this time because my heart and my mind are finally on the same page.
My long term goal is 200lbs, my short term goal is 15lbs in 60 days.
Keep up with me and my progress as I keep you post on my highs & lows.
Love the support and any feedback...... 
June 29, 2010
Today
Here what I am starting with today: 2 bowls of cereal, Cheerios. I need to lose weight, PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!!!
June 28, 2010
SALAD
Hi everybody, hope you are having a good day out there. I am back on this salad kick. Everybody needs to eat green to eat healthy. Hopefully I see the rewards for that. Today I had 2 bowls of Cheerios for breakfast. I just got done eating a salad with cucumber and chicken for lunch. I have some celery for later in case I get hungry. Hopefully this works and I stick to it. Please join me.
June 23, 2010
The Secret
I have not blogged in awhile but I am back with a vengeance because the secret was in front of my face the entire time. Afraid, scared you name it I had it because to be honest with you this was so clear to see that I over looked it. I was putting so much energy into eating let's see cakes, candy, fast food, cheese steaks, french fries and don't forget ice cream and chips and dip. That I did not have time to concentrate on anything else.
So I started looking around at other ppl and how and what they ate and what I saw shocked me. They spent more time eating healthy then, they did eating unhealthy. I saw someone eating rice cakes with peanut butter, tomatoes with ranch dressing. Snacks that would take about 2 minutes was like a task for me. But getting a burger and fries wasn't . So today I dedicated Healthy eating Wednesday just to see how much effort it would take me to fix a healthy lunch and dinner and three healthy snacks. I wanted to put as much energy into that as I did when I went to a fast food place.
Let's see I would stand in line for about 15 to 20 minutes. Get an attitude from the person behind the counter and my order would not be right. I was faithful to them too. No matter how many times my order was messed up, I would show up . Not today, I made a very healthy lunch , dinner and yes I had my rice cakes and peanut butter. Celery, carrots, cucumbers and pineapples. People were looking at me like I had four heads. I felt them staring too. It felt so good that I am going to do it again tomorrow. I need to give the same energy I had with the bad eating to healthy eating. Now that's the Secret.
Change a negative to a positive.
Till tomorrow
June 17, 2010
The Lil Girl with In
Inspired by a blog I read yesterday, I too decided to peel away some of the layers of drama that may/or may not have cause my down fall or weight gain. It may help me to understand this addiction more clearly and be informative to others . For what it is worth this is my story or at least part of the story. Drama takes awhile to tell so gear up for a couple of long reads.
When I was a little girl, and that is all I can remember I am searching for my childhood. I believe that my pain runs so deep beneath the skin that I have blocked it out. So I will start at my earliest memory I was about 11 years of age. And my mother was the cook in the family and we ate like we were down south . The pictures are pretty clear in my mind that I was very slim not even 110 lbs for as long as I could remember. I also know I ate everything that was served to me on a plate with no regards for my future. No one told me about childhood obesity or calorie counting.
As a teenager, I was rebellious surely it came from within and the more I fought against the grain(my mother) the more troubled I became. I wanted to be loved unconditionally and for years I had a yearning that something was missing. I latched on to different things and different ppl.
What does this have to do with helping you, funny as I am writing I am thinking the same thing. People are afraid of secrets or their past, however when reading about someone else past it allows a person to feel like their not alone. You too, may have a hurtful story, that has cause you to give up and give in to your addiction whatever it maybe. I am writing to tell you, that releasing it, will make you feel so much better getting to the root of the problem will be the key to the solution.
Till next time ......
Just maybe the answer to my obesity lies within
When I was a little girl, and that is all I can remember I am searching for my childhood. I believe that my pain runs so deep beneath the skin that I have blocked it out. So I will start at my earliest memory I was about 11 years of age. And my mother was the cook in the family and we ate like we were down south . The pictures are pretty clear in my mind that I was very slim not even 110 lbs for as long as I could remember. I also know I ate everything that was served to me on a plate with no regards for my future. No one told me about childhood obesity or calorie counting.
As a teenager, I was rebellious surely it came from within and the more I fought against the grain(my mother) the more troubled I became. I wanted to be loved unconditionally and for years I had a yearning that something was missing. I latched on to different things and different ppl.
What does this have to do with helping you, funny as I am writing I am thinking the same thing. People are afraid of secrets or their past, however when reading about someone else past it allows a person to feel like their not alone. You too, may have a hurtful story, that has cause you to give up and give in to your addiction whatever it maybe. I am writing to tell you, that releasing it, will make you feel so much better getting to the root of the problem will be the key to the solution.
Till next time ......
Just maybe the answer to my obesity lies within
June 16, 2010
Try Try Again
Don't give up. Even when you have a set back you must not give up. Try again. Tonight is going to be different. You can do it. Here is another motivation picture to help you. Nothing after 8:00. Do we have a deal?
A Lie is a Lie is a Lie
Who can I talk to, to fill this empty space? Who can I run to ?
At the end of everyday / night I have no one but me. I have no desire to blog which I should do by the way . My heart desire is to go to my favorite room and chill with about 2000 calories I often see a disaster before it happens. On Monday I binge and on Tuesdays I did the same thing. Only this time it was at 9pm instead of 8pm, like a hour made the difference I did the same thing.
I thought about doing something active so I turn on the television and watched a weight loss show. Which by the way did nothing for me. I am really out of control at night it is the worst feeling. In my mind I am thinking if I don't eat it all at night there will be none left for me in the the morning. I really need to stop thinking after 7pm because it seems to cause me more problems then eating .
My mind can't /or will not grasp the concept eat some now and save some for later. Eating it all and storing it into my body sounds like a better idea then leaving it in the refrigerator . Like leaving it in the refrigerator would be harmful, oppose to the harm that I am doing to my body .
A lie is a lie is a lie. My body is lying to me telling me that it is hungry when I just ate 1hour before . Well, I will continue to throw myself under the bus until I get this crap right. So two days binging lets see what tonight brings.
No, I am not preparing for the worst I am hoping either during my day there is a cure / or a method to this madness that I can adapt to.
Well until tomorrow I will post my weight as well .
Normally, I would say Holla @ your girl but even if you do it is still all up to me.
At the end of everyday / night I have no one but me. I have no desire to blog which I should do by the way . My heart desire is to go to my favorite room and chill with about 2000 calories I often see a disaster before it happens. On Monday I binge and on Tuesdays I did the same thing. Only this time it was at 9pm instead of 8pm, like a hour made the difference I did the same thing.
I thought about doing something active so I turn on the television and watched a weight loss show. Which by the way did nothing for me. I am really out of control at night it is the worst feeling. In my mind I am thinking if I don't eat it all at night there will be none left for me in the the morning. I really need to stop thinking after 7pm because it seems to cause me more problems then eating .
My mind can't /or will not grasp the concept eat some now and save some for later. Eating it all and storing it into my body sounds like a better idea then leaving it in the refrigerator . Like leaving it in the refrigerator would be harmful, oppose to the harm that I am doing to my body .
A lie is a lie is a lie. My body is lying to me telling me that it is hungry when I just ate 1hour before . Well, I will continue to throw myself under the bus until I get this crap right. So two days binging lets see what tonight brings.
No, I am not preparing for the worst I am hoping either during my day there is a cure / or a method to this madness that I can adapt to.
Well until tomorrow I will post my weight as well .
Normally, I would say Holla @ your girl but even if you do it is still all up to me.
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